My body is ravaged
My soul is torn
I have smothered my spirit
My mind is clouded
My heart full of shame
And I shake with fear
Can I keep trying to start over
& begin again & again
What must it take for me to get off this ride
Will I even be able to survive
My foundation has crumbled I cannot lie
My prospects seem unreachable
Is this how I will die
My tears seem never to dry
I cry out for forgiveness
It’s me who turns away
I have no one & nothing but my ability to pray
Is it worse to feel nothing
Or far too much
I long for serenity for longer than a day
Have I passed the point too far
Or am I just in time
I don’t know if this choice is just mine
I ask for Angels to surround me but I know they never left
It was me, always me that abandoned myself
